I am just about 28 weeks pregnant, again. I feel guilty for not having posted about this pregnancy. For not sharing the ups and downs like I did with my first. Truth is, it is veeeery different. But also, I am also running around with, playing, exploring and teaching my kick ass toddler… all the time, so finding a moment to write is not easy. How all those mom bloggers do it amazes me. I guess they don’t need time to sleep, or bathe or talk to their husbands, or watch Friday Night Lights for the first time ever and wonder why didn’t they watch it when it actually was on the air. Nonetheless, I am here, writing now, finally. Tiny victory.
We, my hubs and I (obviously), had discussed having a second baby pretty early on. We agreed to wait until Crosby was a year old before we even attempted to broach the subject in a real manner. No Irish twins for this lady, my mind and body would reject me and I would suffer a long evil range of horrors which in turn you would be subject to reading. Anyways… In January we started to try again, try – not try I should say. Then again in February with a little more focus on timing. In March I clearly said, “not this month, I don’t want a Christmas baby.” In April I was thinking, somethings amiss. I think I should have my period, but I don’t. So I took a test, it was a very faint line, was it a line? Was it a bad test? Wait, we think I am pregnant, but was I? I sent Kurt out to get another test, the expensive test, you know the one that clearly says “Pregnant” or “Not Pregnant.” Sure enough, I was pregnant. Of course, as life would have it, the more relaxed you are, the less you think about making a baby, the more likely you (really meaning me – especially if you know my story) will get pregnant. I was truly shocked. I mean, how? Well I know how. But I really was cautious, wasn’t I? No. no I wasn’t. The best part was I suddenly did not care if this was a Christmas baby, because hot diggity dog we were doing this again! AND by the end of 2013 there would be a new fresh baby in our family! How perfect is that?! It’s perfect.
First Trimester: Okay first of all, WHY DON’T WOMEN TELL OTHER WOMEN HOW HARD IT IS TO BE PREGNANT WITH A TODDLER? That’s just mean. Is it that we don’t want to reveal that we think it’s hard? Because news flash, it’s freaking hard! No, it’s terrible! Throwing up while you simultaneously smile at your toddler who is terrified at what is happening and just wants to play cars. Feeling exhausted beyond words and NEVER getting to nap because you can’t sleep when a one year old is awake and nobody else is around. I just have to be honest. The first trimester was miserable. With the exception of less worry about what the hell is happening to my body because I am just too focused on my kid in front of my face to worry about me or the kid inside of me. Thankfully and surprisingly I had no food reactions or aversions. I mostly just had a need for an obscene amount of Rocky Road ice cream, the good kind by Bryers. Trimester one is not for the weak. It’s a lesson in strength, perseverance and legitimate badass momness. And if you’re a mom who is all “It’s not that bad,” you’re a liar who LIES!
Second Trimester: Hey now, this one is a bit easier. More energy, like “they” say. This did not happen in the first pregnancy. But this go around I felt energetic and capable of functioning. Also my brain didn’t feel like it was escaping me completely. It did, but either I didn’t care or I am so used to only living moment to moment that I didn’t notice too much. I was still throwing up, but just once a week as opposed to every day. This, to me, is a beautiful vacation. That alone is what makes this pregnancy a billion times easier than my first. Though I don’t get to say “You better be a damn good baby” every time I throw up. I also don’t get to say, silently in my own head to myself, “Yay I am not gaining too much weight.” Truth- I am gaining weight. The kind you are supposed to gain. Blah blah blah… I’m gaining weight!
Third Trimester: I only just entered this phase. The lethargy is kicking in again. So is the need for Rocky Road ice cream. Oh and what is up with the acid reflux? It is just an evil EVIL unnecessary obstacle for pregnant women to overcome. The babe moves a lot. Getting busy all up in my uterus. It’s actually a wonderful feeling. Though sometimes it feels like a gas bubble moving through me but without the release of a fart. That part is weird.
I am excited to meet our little girl. Yes, a girl! This Christmas we will complete our family (because I am not doing this pregnancy thing again – honey’s getting snipped snipped fo’ sho). I look forward to watching my son hold my daughter and give her kisses like he gives us. Living in the endless giggles and adventures we will all share. I know this will be hard, but what’s an adventure if it doesn’t make you overcome some element that you just never thought you’d experience? I dreamed of a family. That dream, that adventure, is so much better than I ever imagined. That’s probably why moms don’t tell you it’s hard to be pregnant with a toddler. They know what comes next. They know it’s totally worth it.
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